i dunno whr to begin... dere's too many things tts goin on... but which is the most drastic one?? seems like most of them are on par... juz imagine...one day... u woke up late for test... walk till the roadside... and a few minutes later... turn back and walk home cuz u feel tt ur gonna get ur attack wen u reach there... test starts at 9.. and ur still at hm wen its 8.45am... gone case... and u onli learn topic 1 and 2.. topic 3.. u dun even haf the handout cuz u nvr attend lectures.. wads d point of goin for the test even? to prove to the lecturer that ur the worst student in cls? well... u alrdy achieve tt.. therefore.. for food preservation test 1... my mark is 0...
on the very same day... ENVSTA test results are released online.. wen u went to check... u couldnt understand a shit! out of 100... u managed to attained 1/5 of the marks... how 'happie' can one get?
earlier, b4 these 2 incidents, ur bf msged u... suspecting sth's not right wen u msg ur old old crush hu juz happens to be an aquaintance of urs.. where's the trust gone to? did it wen for a walk and nvr came back? u were alrdy so worried wen he din reply back the night b4.. thinkin he might be angry... so u kept on msgin.. and still no reply... and ur tots suddenly ran wild... God.. help me.... its like a big boulder come crashing on u from the top...
after all these things tt happened... u tried msging the person whom u always turn to first... den.. she said she is goin out with her friend... its not tt u dislike her fer tt... but if u were in her shoes, uu would accompany the one hu needs u more at tt time and compensate another day... but then again.. different ppl might haf different view... a promise said, is a promise made... haiz.... i juz need to be alone NOW... my mind is in a whirl.... whr have all the ppl i need gone to? maybe i need to do some soul-searching..
after all... xin yan is always there for me....
11:20 AM;
I made my mark
LOST IDENTITY
-=|Solistice|=-
I stand in between both solstice; slashed, tortured, LOST.
