why do all good things come to an end? its not for us to judge nor decide.. like i said earlier.. i'm tired of catching up with his steps... today.. i had a choice to choose between far east or plaza sing gelare.. initially.. i chose fep.. den i change to ps.. i had no intention of seeing him at all.. Fatt juz wanted to go gelare.. fep is not convenient wen going hm.. besides... i'm minimising my conver. with him.. i did sth wrong today... which i feel so guilty even till now... wen we wanted to go off.. he asked..."not waitin for me? haha" he cud had meant in a joking way or really meant it.. my immediate ans was " hah! go and die.." i feel hurt if i were him... i'm sry.... but it juz came out... "wait"... y am i alwayss waiting for u? i waited 2 hours standing at same spot the day wen u wen silent and i said i wanted to meet u aft ur werk at sg.. we talked for 15 mins.. and i watch u walked away...... i waited outside ps several times to give u a surprise aft ur werk last time... but to no avail...... i waited for ur replies for days and weeks...but to receive no response... this isn't love... this is foolishness.. hah.... i was a mere rebound to u... but i gotta thank you.... all these are experiences which will makes me a stronger person huu will not succumb to such treatments anymore... fArk all shitty guys hu r out there to toy gurl's feelings.. face it wen u haf probs... not run away and go missing... and say sry aft tt.... y say sry wen u noe its wrong? i'm farkin hurt everyday wit tots of u linger in my head which refused to get out! i blanket my feelings very well in public.... at home i'm all liquidified... i dunno from wher i muster e courage to still see u even wen my goal is to rid u.. aft seein u... i'll go.." fArk! y did i even bother?!" n it adds on to my miseries.. monday.... my last time going over to him..... to pass him cig... aft tt.... he wans.... he come to mi.... i bet he got no guts to even come to mi... i'm hurt too deep........ i'm too hurt to carry on...
11:43 PM;
I made my mark
LOST IDENTITY
-=|Solistice|=-
I stand in between both solstice; slashed, tortured, LOST.
