its been daays since i posted anythin... too much things tt i want to let out.. but i dunno which one to begin with... i feel so pressurized!!! i'm like at the bottom part of my life... no rope could pull me up... onli his hand that can reach out for mine could help me ease my pressure... at SPAC2GO camp... i did enjoy myself.... last day of camp... seniors ask us to vote for chairperson, v.chairperson, treasurer and secretary for expedition and residential committee.... least i expected tt i would b chosen to b e chairperson for expedition committee... my v. chair is feng kai and secretary kamae and treasurer daryl.. i dunno wad to do... i'm so lost! to chair a committee needs a lot of committment... i dunno if i possess one.. my life is filled with werk, skool, den now..cca.. frenz and family... not forgeting my dear of cuz... everthin is compressed together... tats wad my life is... skool... aft skool..werk.. since now i in charge of expedition committee... i have to let go of my werk abit... i feel so guilty.. i cant bear to werk so little.. not fer income.. but fer the sake of fulfilling the short of manpower on certain days... den... las min... sum1 told me to held a meetin tis week... i'm already so packed... now i have to take leave on thurs and find replacement asap... which i cant find at all! how?? i'm so stressed up.. den he told me to plan wad to do.... wad to bring.... i dun even noe wad i'm supposed to do... am i suppose to plan for a camp... or plan to find external helpers.. or wad? i'm so lost! fArk laa... den recently i juz saw my 2nd sem time table... freakin tight sia!!! i dunno what do dey have against dcp1b04... where have we gone wrong?? i practically end my lessons at 5pm!!! i still have to go werk... aRgH!!! i dunno wad to do... self-multilating crosses my mind every second.... but i muz rmb tt i'm meeting him in 4 days time...i freakin lOst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone... show me some guidance.... i dunno wad to do wit myself...the pain iinside is evoking...i wanna scream if i can.... where is he?? i miss him alot!!!! omg.... help me.....
2:59 AM;
I made my mark
LOST IDENTITY
-=|Solistice|=-
I stand in between both solstice; slashed, tortured, LOST.
