A low-life jos trying his very best to keep up being the 'wise' one handing out threats and redundant advices which i think he could keep it for himself.. Judging others with his eyes but zero thinking.. a brain which seems like a pea to me.. his comments r just like spices to my curry.. i dun bother to know hu u r.. but it bothers me whether ur 9 or 40 years old. =)
Yes cousin, all talk... no substance.. haha.. i like that.. Anyway.. i'll leave it to God. He knows best. And i do believe in karma. To God i pray, this fellow to see the lights to his life and pave his way to a better route. Obstacles r just test in one's life. Its natural and not meant to be created by no one but God Himself. Judging and hurtful comments, its best if u keep it to urself, jos. Well, but if ur having a hard day, and u wish to let go ur anger, go ahead... my tagboard is opened. Seems like thats ur only way of making urself feel better. =) cheers dude.

2:10 AM;
I made my mark

A super long and tiring day.. was at G.cafe from the time i switched on the lights till i switched em off..aft tt, played pool with steph and her fren(whom the name i forgot).. Great game.. but just tired to go on.. Later in the afternoon, will b working at P.spot till midnight. And the following day same thing.. and the following following day the same thing.. For me, life revolves around work.. having 2 jobs kinda help to keep myself well-occupied.. But i go crazy again the moment i reach home.. Insanity is sth which is embedded in me like a plague that can never be remove till sth is sacrificed. Fido's @ KL... mummy's going malacca later.. go..go..go... argh.. i miss fido.. that stoopid moron is really an idiot... urgh..

my heart aches each nite thinking bout my past.. sth which i cherished soo much previously that i keep salvaging the relationship till i'm so tired of doing so.. if i could rewind back the time, i shouldn't haf even join g.cafe. That way, i wouldnt get to know him and be miserably head over heel about him. also, i wouldnt be so damaged where health is concerned. But, at least i learn to be an extrovert and made some frenz.. Someone hu falls in love easily always ends up in a pile of shit. duh~.. Happy.. i just wanna b happie.. i can mask my heartaches and sadness beneath the smile.. but back at home.. same recurring memories and flashbacks occur to often to bear. i wanna forget everything and be someone new.. i wanna move to a place where no one knows me.. AFRESH. i dun like deceiving myself any further. And to yan, face the truth.. we're over. no use keeping the truth from ur parents and siblings. If u can tell ur colleagues, y not ur family? i dowan u to hang on to any hope there is between us. in fact.. there aint any hope. i've surrendered. and i noe ur totally hopeless at salvaging things. not even a persuade. ur ego rule ur head. if i were someone u really loved, u would haf lowered ur ego towards me from the start. but u din... i had to keep up with u.. and i no longer can muster that strength to carry on the same journey as u... like how u wish me all the best, i would wish u all the best in life too..

3:01 AM;
I made my mark

Tuesday.. by right.. busy.. by left.. boring~! But at least my cousin, hanis came down together with fiqah and my happie pill.. made my day a little tho.. Earlier, i was fuming mad that u could see dark clouds hovering above my head.. My little trainee.. made me mad.. aft that i sat down and talked to her.. worst.. she cried.. haiyo... i din even scold her.. i just talked to her.. and everyone said i like making ppl cry.. haha.. unintentional! no doubt tt 90% of the trainees under me cried. the challenge given to me when assigned to train new crew isnt to train the person well.. but to NOT make them cry.. guessed i fail again.. haiyo.... sry if my face scares u.. but work is work.. aft tt u wanna hehe haha with me oso i dun care..
Tmr, a day i look forward to.. gonna be hell of good time!! haha!! OFF day! can go meet dad.. its been quite sometime since i saw him.. that was like... before nora fly off to dunno where.. kinda miss him.. love u daddy..
Dear poly frenz who reads my blog, i miss u guys alot.. do text me for a meet up yea?? all the best for ur final sem.. exBDS ppl... its been months!! c'mon c'mon... organize sth.. i cant organize this time round cuz i'm busy working my ass off.. heh!Happie pill, thx alot for being a monster.. haha.. miss u..

12:11 AM;
I made my mark

its amazing how these kinda ppl come about in ppl's life.. thinking they know wad others been thru.. but.. i wouldn't take it as a bad thing.. i dun own their mouth nor thoughts.. so, as a courtesy, i'll just thank them for their comments. It's my pleasure to hear your thoughts..=)
Anyway.. life have been monotonous lately.. but i chose it to be that way. so, walk thru it.. Sorry to mother, i can't fulfil ur wish of me getting engaged that soon.. cuz we separated already. And its a final decision already. I dun wish to elaborate as to why the firm stand to end the relationship.. but all i noe, its over. Healing an open wound would definitely take a long period of time.. but i think i'm able to do it on my own.
Work.. work's cool.. but tiring as usual.. I wish to be transferred out of hougang. Or perhaps, another job? which is so impossible at this period.
Replt to 'jos':
1. I'm not encouraging my cousin to do it or is on her side. Things HAD already happen. Why bother to pull her down further? Do u even noe how she felt? Do u even talk to her? Condemning ppl isn't gonna help them continue to breathe easily. She already received her punishment. Taking up responsibilty as a mother. So condemning her would make her feel better? haha.. take the chance to think before u talk too..=) or perhaps, put urself in her shoes.. Oh! i forgot.. If u noe how to put urself in others' shoe, u wouldnt be saying such things.. sorry.. try learning ya? its gooood...
2. "Blaming parents and elderly"? haha.. If i ever did, I'm so sorry, mum. I love my parents even though i came from a broken family. We don't show our love. Are u part of my family? You noe wat we wen thru? you noe our lifestyle? NEVER bring in my family matters if u dun even live under the same roof as me.
3. "Grow up from my dream lifestyle".. I bet u do have ur own dream lifestyle and the immaturity thought in u even if ur 40 years old. There's always a part of human that never grow up. Even if i'm immature with the way i blog, it's just in me. I like it. I blog to express.. Not to impress. Besides, I'm still young. I have choices. Choices of how to live my life.
4. "Mind your own business".. it refers to ppl like ur kind. Poke their nose into ppl's life witout knowing the content, much less the prologue. And perhaps, ppl like you depends on ppl for help. U will never be able to make it for the future if u keep leaning, baby... If i am in trouble.. it IS really none of ur business.. Cuz i prefer to get out of shits myself. Not implicating others. =)
5. "And the next time before any word come out from ones mouth, Think and checkup before saying sometime which you wish it never happens or said out." - this is MY blog. No intention to let others read. Just to vomit thoughts and feelings that are bottling up. Rather than have them explode inside me. Like i said earlier.. no one owns one anothers' mouth nor thoughts.. Freedom of speech is most welcome here. =)If ur hurt by my words.. take it in ur stride, hunny.. For me, it'll only make me stronger.

2:27 AM;
I made my mark

first of all.. my life's in a mess. talking about relationship, work, studies.. it's all a mess.. my exams are like a month+ away and i've yet to put my brain to work. in fact, the cells are depleting... Working my ass off everyday and trying to keep myself happy before i break down, is a lot tougher than i initially tot..
Anyway, I was supposed to visit Fayzan yesterday but i was totally wiped out. Kinda miss him..
After i read Hanis's entries, i'm kinda pissed off with hu ever that's trying to mess with her life.. really a shame to mankind. i bet she's not well-educated.. Bringing down other's life isn't something worth to spend time on.. Nor a habit that many would practise. Bet she got such talents that she didn't realize the shame is drawn to her..
GTg now.. before i change my mind and rest at home instead of going over to hanis's.

12:14 PM;
I made my mark