Untitled. Lost. ;Without hope`

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I had enough. I'd swallowed so much of my pride and 'd been forgiving but never forgetting. If i had changed so much to move at your momentum, why can't you do the same? Why does it seems so hard to breathe each time i'm with you? I had to fake my trueself. I smile so as to not rot the mood. If doing something with me seems to just be a game, and not a challenge, I'm no different from a kid. If a game to you is not about winning, I'm being a fool to look upon it as one. If your mindset is always fixed, we can never click. Cuz i haf to change mine to understand urs ALWAYS! "Sorry" has always been the hardest word to say. Even after you say it, u haf ur say. So wad's the point? What's the big deal about giving in once in a while? Winning is not everything. Yes. I hope you don't win yourself a position in ur so-called new 'high-classed' restaurant. Its no wonder till now u haven't win my heart. If you don't look upon obstacles as a challenge, but just a game, you'll never make it to the top. And, you noe wad... since eveything is a game, this relationship's gameover.

1:11 PM;
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Thursday, March 12, 2009

~hehe.. cool eh?

~oo lala... the theme is 'Messy'

we both were in the same chging rm tryin on clothes... and not

to mention...comparing who's fatter... wth bel.. haha~!

As u can see... i had my fringe sliced off.. now.. i look like toot toot... ppl kept asking "y u cut ur fringe?!?!" damn... i had no choice!! either cut or pin up and i look very haggard.. so i took the risk and now i'm pulling it every single day to fasten the growth.. (which is totally illogical) hmm.. so far i'm doing well in my new job.. still trying to adapt and learn things fast.. tired as per normal.. recently just went out with joe and bel.. had loads of catch up done..

Nowadays i easily get hot-headed... throwing tantrums over small issues.. even a slightest dust can piss me off.. people usually cry for reasons.. i cry... and then i find reasons... wth.. F*** it.. my mood changes very fast.. i can be extremely happy.. a minute later... u see my sulking face.. damn.. i dunno y.. well... not during werk of cuz... i maintain that smile all the way till i get cramp at times.. laugh unecessarily.. and aft werk... silent all the way.. anyway.. i'll be quite busy these few days so havent really got the time to update.. so.. anything, u guys can reach me via my fone.. 24hrs on.. except tt i wun answer wen werking or dead aslp.. chaoz..

11:59 PM;
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Monday, March 02, 2009

*bUrppp*

now u know where my nose and stern face come from

caught em on candid

the chicken's burnt!! flip it! hurry!

caught her off guard.. hehe

Dinner with dad and sis.. Totally had loads of laughter and joy.. haha.. irna lots of toys.. nora lots of books and me lots of sesame streets... me sleeping in the basket and reciting ABC song.. All these wen we were still below 10 years old.. now.. a decade past.. look at us.. grown half size taller.. i cant really recall much of the past.. cuz i only remember wad i dun wish to remember. Sometimes.. one really haf to hide sooo much of how and wad they feel in order to not affect the people around them.. ppl say.. let bygone be bygone.. but doesnt it bug ur conscience? it can drive u nuts.. nuts nuts nuts nuts nuts nuts nuts nuts...

NORA! i tell u! STUDY HARD HOR! only den ur holiday from home is paid off.. And wen semester's over.. COME BACK HOME! cuz we miss ur cute nerdy face... love u babe...

p.s: ur gorgeous actually..*hugs*

1:32 AM;
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Sunday, March 01, 2009

A good day to sleep in today.. the soft whisper of the splattering rain on my window.. the gentle breeze that caress my skin could just send me floating off to bed now.. BUT! nooo... meeting dad later for dinner.. and need to shop for long-sleeved shirts for my work starting tmr! Got up real late today.. about half an hour ago? hah.. had really hectic days for the past week.. finally i got to rest.. anyway.. i'm still waiting for my sis to come home for the past a month plus! come back soon ya? the house seems like a stranger's house.. i dunno hu i living with.. come back and make me realise.. for days i only keep myself in this room wen not werking.. only go out to toilet wen nature calls. At least i got someone to quarrel with.. Someone hu can be my guinea pig wen i cook.. anyway... ur room's a mess.. waiting for u to come and clean it up.. hahaha! no matter how i clean it.. i'll still make a mess somehow.. the longer u take to return... i make sure cobwebs form at the corner of ur ceilings.......

4:03 PM;
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