Each day seems like any other day to me.. i hog on the fone wit frenz, wasting my time on the net, goin out without a destination or motive.. having a bf(dunno if he regard me as his gf) is like not having one.. it feels as though i'm gradually drifting apart from my treasures.. I'm jobless and skooless... wad da fark! argh! sometimes i do wish i could go back to gelare.. at least i could work and not think of other things.. he.... haiya... think bout it makes me feel......dunno angry or wad... wad do i haf to do to make myself feel ok??? sometimes i wonder if in the first plc i'm ur gf... ppl ask if i'm attached... i said i am.. dunno if tts the correct ans.. arGh! i wonder if ppl ask him tt qn... wad his ans would be... i'm tryin to occupy myself wit all the things i could do to not think of u... cuz it hurts everytime i think of my plight.. do u realli love me? or r u juz recuperating from ur previous fall? i noe i'm not suppose to think tt way.. cuz i alrdy noe wad kind of situation ur in b4 i got close to u.. but i din noe it would affect me tis much.. perhaps i realli shuden fall too deep... i love u as it is.. i wait till u pick urself up fully den i'll learn to love u more..
i masked my expressions well.. i blanket my fear with the joyful tots.. i ignore nonsensical comments.. make me happy... i can be soft hearted... easily deceived by words.. taken in by lies.. bless me with decent joy.. i'll be thankful for tt.. prick me with ur nonsense.. i'll stab u with my silence.. dun try to open the pandora's box... it'll be horrible.. ArgH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3:09 AM;
I made my mark
LOST IDENTITY
-=|Solistice|=-
I stand in between both solstice; slashed, tortured, LOST.
