when boredom strikes...
hAri raya haji.. me and danish!
day after day... i occupy myself with work.. from the time i wake up till late nite.. 6 days a week i slog my way to escape the sadness.. wen i'm home early, i'll slp... it'll all be alryt wen i wake up.. like Jab said..."Everything will b alryt...God have plans for all of us..." God had been punishing me for my misdeeds.. i'd nvr fall so sick till i tot i was gonna die somehow...(how stoopid) i tot to myself.. He can take wad He had given. till now, i resign to fate.. no doubt, i'm still hanging on to hope.. tho i noe it wouldnt give me the green lite.. everyday, i tot of him.. miss him.. hate him.. i'm juz confused.. i hate but love him still.. i couldnt open up my heart to anyone else.. perhapss.. i love him too deep...
but he answered to my questions which kept passing by my mind.. i'd finally realized all the while, i've been lovin him more than he loved me.. my sister taught me one thing.. Love doesnt exist.. its juz crushes or like..
i smiled whenever i see "heart-wrencher" beep on my hp.. but the tot of wad happened is realli heart wrenching.. i'm juz plain hurt.. emptiness filled me.. i hate him for makin me feel like a rebound, a momentary-pillar which recently dissipated.. i hate him for making me fall for him..i hate him for leaving juz like tat.. i hate him robbing me off the chance of being with anyone.. but i love him for every single moment we had previously.. it conquers everything..
i miss u baby...
when boredom strikes...
hAri raya haji.. me and danish!