This is El... my laughing gas emitter
This is mi.. trying to stop hibernating after waffle day
Today was Gelare's waffle day... and tmr is the day boss coming down for store visit. Are we suay or SUAY??! me and el stayed there till 2am. We were basically having wars with the cutleries... hell loads of them to wipe and fold. Clean up here and there. the tot of staying over at the outlet was there till we couldnt take it... and left for home.. tmr both of us are doing opening. that''s wad keep us there.. and the tot of boss coming down.... even firm our stands. but our battery was going flat soon... we could hibernate anytime. But here i am blogging away... trying to keep myself awake and not fall aslp. if i fall aslp... its a gone case. i wun be able to wake up later.
My bb has been quite different lately. he's no longer the guy i knew previously. i noe as couple gets closer, we tend to find out more things and learn to accept. things changed. he no longer give in and cheers me up. he no longer brings a smile to my face each time i was down. he no longer listens to my opinion with understanding. my words were taken lightly as tho it carries no meaning. could it been me? did i cause all of tt to happen since i have attitude problem? its tat y he's being tt way too? at times, i just wanna shun away from him... not calling or msging him.. nor see him... but i cant avoid him for long... he would anyhow think. i just need some time off. i'm alrdy stressed out at work.. and my studies... i dunno how long more i can juggle these things well. eventually... sth gonna drop. i need his concern.. but its not there... i need his ears.. but its not available. i dun need his unnecessary comments that puts me off.. i need sth that consoles me...am i asking for too much? sometimes... i just wanna break off with him and feel wad it is like without him... but i couldnt bring myself to do so. one thing i seek.... dun be angry with me. i may not seem affected.. but deep inside... i'm very afraid of ppl hu gets angry with me. i fear d words tat comes out of the mouth. cuz i bet its heart-piercing. he'd pierced my heart dunno how many times yet not all he noes. its tormenting being in a relationship yet u just wish for someone to be there 4 u and someone to share ur joy with. there's a price to pay for everything. nth in this world is free....
you noe... today.. wen he called (finally.....) at 1am plus... he asked where i was. i said FEP. den told him that i was staying over.... he was obviously against the idea.. and asked me to go back... sounded unhappy... ok..... and then... i was actually expecting a sweet bb to come here and fetch me or sth... neh..... he reached home minutes later as he texted me.... mayb its a wishful thinking on my part thinking that he has nth better to do.... e's not a romantic kinda person.... and to him.... i'm just a kid... i'm just like a little sister to him hu listens to him all the time... haiz... where are we moving to? i dunnoo...... 15th aug is our so called official date where we turned 6th month old together. my feelings aint that strong anymore... i need his help to strengthen back those feelings.