A super long and tiring day.. was at G.cafe from the time i switched on the lights till i switched em off..aft tt, played pool with steph and her fren(whom the name i forgot).. Great game.. but just tired to go on.. Later in the afternoon, will b working at P.spot till midnight. And the following day same thing.. and the following following day the same thing.. For me, life revolves around work.. having 2 jobs kinda help to keep myself well-occupied.. But i go crazy again the moment i reach home.. Insanity is sth which is embedded in me like a plague that can never be remove till sth is sacrificed. Fido's @ KL... mummy's going malacca later.. go..go..go... argh.. i miss fido.. that stoopid moron is really an idiot... urgh..
my heart aches each nite thinking bout my past.. sth which i cherished soo much previously that i keep salvaging the relationship till i'm so tired of doing so.. if i could rewind back the time, i shouldn't haf even join g.cafe. That way, i wouldnt get to know him and be miserably head over heel about him. also, i wouldnt be so damaged where health is concerned. But, at least i learn to be an extrovert and made some frenz.. Someone hu falls in love easily always ends up in a pile of shit. duh~.. Happy.. i just wanna b happie.. i can mask my heartaches and sadness beneath the smile.. but back at home.. same recurring memories and flashbacks occur to often to bear. i wanna forget everything and be someone new.. i wanna move to a place where no one knows me.. AFRESH. i dun like deceiving myself any further. And to yan, face the truth.. we're over. no use keeping the truth from ur parents and siblings. If u can tell ur colleagues, y not ur family? i dowan u to hang on to any hope there is between us. in fact.. there aint any hope. i've surrendered. and i noe ur totally hopeless at salvaging things. not even a persuade. ur ego rule ur head. if i were someone u really loved, u would haf lowered ur ego towards me from the start. but u din... i had to keep up with u.. and i no longer can muster that strength to carry on the same journey as u... like how u wish me all the best, i would wish u all the best in life too..
3:01 AM;
I made my mark
LOST IDENTITY
-=|Solistice|=-
I stand in between both solstice; slashed, tortured, LOST.
